“… but it’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst… And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.” – Alan Ball, American Beauty
I am a big fan of my neighborhood dog park. I like to sip coffee in the sunshine and chat with my neighbors (or not chat with my neighbors). It’s an ever-changing, diverse group of people who love dogs.
One of the first characters I met at the park was Louise, a 30-something New Yorker with a badass pixie cut. Louise was a trained dancer who seemed to have a thing for crossword puzzles, frequently working on one as we chatted. As I got to know her, I learned that Louise had a brain tumor, one that required brain surgery every 5-7 years. Prior to each surgery she never knew what abilities she would retain, or whether or not she would live. When I met her she had undergone this surgery 3 times, having to re-learn language, reading and writing after each. (That explained both the crosswords and that badass ‘do, which covered a pretty epic scar.)
I found it remarkable how upbeat and positive Louise remained; how fearlessly she embraced the reality that we all live with, but tend to ignore – that today very well could be our last. It’s been three years since Louise moved out of the ‘hood, her tumor having returned, she went back home for another surgery.
I was reminded of Louise and her story when I listened to this week’s TED Radio Hour, The Unknown Brain, particularly the first segment. Would I live my life differently knowing it would be in 5-year incriments, if there was a sort of memory “reset”? If all that emotional baggage of memories from the past could be unloaded would that be libearating or debilitating? We all know how that turn out in Eternal Sunshine of the Spottless Mind. And what about Leanord in Memento? (Great flicks!) I think, if fortunate enough to be given the choice, I’d keep all the memories. Except for maybe that one New Year’s Eve…
21 February | Saturday
DU’s + Sit-ups
Stretchin’ | 20:00
22 February | Sunday
23 February | Monday
The return of Ice Ice
MFR | 15:00
Warm up | 3 rds:
200 m run/AD/Row
8 Wall balls
Workout | 4×1 Deadlift (205, 215,
:30 Wall balls
Stretch | 20:00
Annie was great except I didn’t kill it on the DU’s; had PT on Friday and I felt a little stiff in the shoulder, mid back-region. And all those sit-ups left me with a raspberry on my coin slot and some seriously sore abs. In fact, I was still feeling it during Monday’s burpees.
Monday’s deadlifts felt good, though I just could not pull 220# off the floor. My barbell partner, Krista, surpassed her previous PR by 20#s! I am liking dropping into class a couple times a week. It’s fun to workout with everyone. The conditioning rounds felt good! Feeling it in my quads this morning, a result of the burpees no doubt. (Am I the only one that gets sore quads from burpees? Am I doing it wrong?)