Hippie Shit

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
 
if you will risk
 
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
 
squaring your moon…
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shriveled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
 
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
 
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know
if you can be alone
 
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.

-Oriah, The Invitation

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06 Mar | M
Mobility | 3x
Wall rotation + press x 10
SL elev hip bridge x 10 ea
COB hold x :20
Reverse curl-ups x 10

Warm-up | 3x
Wall balls x 10
BB RDL x 10
BB row x 10
DUs x 30

Work | Back squat 7 x 2 @ 70% (155#)
Rest x 2:00
5x:
Death march x 10 (30# DBs) right into
Tricep push-downs x 10 (bleu) right into
Row x 250m (:55, :54, :55, :55, :55)
Rest x 1:00
-then-
Banded hamstring curls 3 x 8-10 ea (blew)

Stretch | Chat

07 Mar | Tu
Mobility | 3x
Single-leg adductor squat x 10 ea
Prone y raise (weighted) x 10
Glute press x 10

Warm-up | 3x
AD x 1:00
KB swing – twirl – squat – snatch – RDL x 5 ea

Work | 10x
Back squat 1-1/4 x 3 @ +/-50% (95#)
Rest x 2:00
-then-
EMOM x 20:00
DUs x :20
Power clean x 3 (TNG -105, 6@115#, 3@125#)

08 Mar | W
Mobility | 3x
GA squat x 10
Scap press x 10
Reaching DBs x :30

Warm-up | 3x
Row x 1:00
KBS x 10
DUs x 20

Work | O-lifting!
Clean pull 3 x 3 [build] (155, 175, 185#)
Clean + high-hang clean x 5 (115, 125, 135, 135, 140#)
Tall jerk x 5 [across] (75#)


M | Or should that be 2 x 7 @ 70%… Hmm. Matters of nomenclature. The death marches are different with dumbbells; I feel them more intensely in the glutes than with the KBs. Is this a ROM thing? The row – I can definitely tell I’ve been working with the barbell more than anything else. 

Tu | Not too sore from Monday’s squats… until I started warming up for Tuesday’s! Focused on maintaining tension through the entire set. However, upon review of the movement stardard (after the fact – timing is everything) I was coming up out of the bottom more than I should have. Notes for next time.

W | Lifting is the best. Learning to transition my feet in lifters. 

Attempted to do the assigned Thursday workout – rolled, mobilized, warmed-up, did first of five rounds… and left. Gym juju or just over due for a rest day? Hmm. Will get after it tonight.

Fear[less]

 Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

-Dylan Thomas

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What does fear look like…?

It’s staying in a job that’s no longer fulfilling; it’s grasping at that relationship instead of cutting that brah (or bish) loose; it’s listening to your head instead of your gut; it’s nodding and smiling instead of asking the question; it’s getting defensive when the question is asked of you.

And, it’s an Olympic gold medalist shrouded in the American flag.


16 Nov | W
Mobility | 3x
GA squats x 10
Prone Y raise x 10
TVA drops x 10

Warm-up | 3x
AD x 1:00
DUs x 30
Banded shoulder things

Work | O-lifting – Week Tres
Clean pulls [build] 5 x 1 (125, 135, 155, 175, 195#)
Clean pulls [across] 5 x 1 (195#)
Clean [build] 5 x 1 (115, 125, 135, 145#…)
Clean [across] 5 x 1 (145, 145, 140#…)
Tall jerks [build] 5 x 1 (65, 70, 75#…)
Rack jerks [across] 5 x 1 (125, 130, 130, 125#…)

15 Nov | Tu
Mobility | 3x
Elbow plank + reach across x 10 ea
Bird dogs x 10 ea
Hanging leg raise x 10

Warm-up | 3x
AD x 1:00
Wall walk x 2
Single-arm press x 7 ea

Work | 10x:
Back squat x 4 (5@ 135#, 5@ 145#)
Rest x 1:00
Wall run x :30 (Lateral walks after round 2)
Rest x 1:00
-then-
5x:
Single-leg RDL x 10 ea (44#)
Rest x 1:00
KB snatch x 5 ea (35#)
Rest x 1:00
-then-
5x: (5:36)
KBS x 15 @ 35#
DUs x 30

14 Nov | M
Mobility | 3x
Single-leg adductor squat x 12 ea
Scap press x 10 (deliberate AF)
Reverse curl-ups x 10

Warm-up | 3x
Wall ball x 10
Single arm banded rows x 10 ea
Pistoles x 2 ea

Work | x 30:00, rotating:
AD x 20 cals
Row x 1:00
Lunges x 10 (front rack KB reverse w/ 2 x 35#ers… pppt)
Single-leg hip thrusts x 10 ea (18# KB)

Stretch | 20:00


M | Hip a little stiff and sore; maybe from the Sunday hike, maybe from accumulated workload, maybe from dodging my fears of how that work meeting was gonna go (it went fucking great!). It was smart then that I added ‘front rack KB reverse’ to the lunges right…?

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Tu | Ooh, that was some work. Modified the wall runs to lateral walks because of the shoulder. Something about the extension after the shoulder tap not being in the right position, it feels like it’s pinching something. Felt fine as long as I kept the arm extended and locked out, thus the lateral walks. 

W | Surprised at how fast the movements felt with the barbell considering all the work yesterday. The cleans felt dandy; getting out of the bottom like a boss, comparatively. The jerks felt nice and fast, no shoulder pain or hesitation. Tall jerks, not my wheelhouse, but, man, do they help trigger the speed.

Zodiac Attack-ack-ack-ack

“It doesn’t matter how this looks to other people. If this is something you gotta do, then you do it. Fighters fight.” – Rocky Balboa

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Damn you Billy Joel. So unnecessary.

Been a little extra fascinated with all the Zodiac things this week. So far, I’ve been informed of the weaknesses and psychic powers of The Archer. Fun, if not totally accurate.

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Tina’s psychic powers are my favorite

16 March | W
A very extensive Warm-up | 3x
AD x 2:00
DUs x 30
Mobility

Work | O-Lifting
Tall (fast) jerks 6 x 2 (65#)
Back squat + chains 5 x 2 (155,155,165,165,175#)
3 rounds:
Handstand holds!
Seated box jumps x 2
Horiz. pallof press – inside leg forward x 10 ea

Stretch + lacrosse balls | 20:00


Not getting the best sleep this week, so I didn’t push it on the plates. The tall jerks felt much strong than last week’s did, especially the second rep. First rep warm-up! Focused on my footing on the BS; still amazing how much more drive I feel like I have. And that it took me 4 years of hearing the cues to have it sink in. Ooooh. Practiced my pirouettes on the HS holds, and was reminded not to be a little bitch on the yumps by Sprouse. Thank you, Kyle.

Left the gymnasium, went home and fixed the most delicious steak I can remember eating. So I took a pic. #duh or maybe #ugh…

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Hard Things

“Silence is so accurate.” – Mark Rothko

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That’s the FNG on the left there. No it’s not! He only talks about himself. Ha! #accurate

I was really intrigued by this week’s Note to Self podcast, which essentially was about engaging in uncomfortable conversation. It reminded me of that New York Times piece about how to fall in love with anyone, the one with all the great questions. Why is it that we sometimes fail to ask the most important questions, and/or that we make those questions so much harder than they have to be?

The NTS convo focused on sexual kinks, and an app that was developed to help get couples talking about theirs. The conversation had my mind going off on so many tangents: religion, relationships, technology, sex, have you seen the movie “Kinsey”?! I think I like that technology is helping to serve as a catalyst for a deeper conversation (or, per the couple in the podcast, pulling back the curtain for their golden shower bliss) but it makes me a little sad that it’s needed in the first place.

Hard conversations. Let’s all have more of them!


05 March | Sa
Work | O-lifting
Hang power clean 5 x 2 (105,105,115#…)
Snatch + OHS 5 x 1(65,65,75,75,85#)
Box squats 4 x 3 (95,115#…)
3 sets:
Box jumps x 2
Lunging pallof press x 10 ea
Chinese row x 10 ea

Get bendy | 20:00

04 March | F
Warm-up | x4
Banded clammies x 10 ea
Prone glute press x 10
AD x 1:00

Work | Wednesday’s O-lifting-ish
Tall jerks 5 x 2 (55,60,65#…)
Back squat + chains 5 x 2 (155,165,170#…)
3 sets:
Samurai squats x 5 ea (35#)
Death march (25# DBs)
Wall-pressing dead bugs x1:00

Some stretching + homework | 15:00


I missed O-lifting on Wednesday, so I sneaked it in on Friday, minus some of the volume on the lifts. Practiced anchoring my feet on the back squat per the link on the website a week (or two) ago. I have definitely NOT been anchoring my feet correctly. I thought I felt grounded before, but that whole pinkie toe drive was a game changer. Lots of feels in the glutes during the samurai squats and the death marches.

Saturday’s O-lifting class felt really good; fast on the cleans and snatches. I think I’m getting better at positioning for the box squats. They are fucking hard, but man do I like how they feel the next day.

Maybe went a little too heavy on Saturday and had to skip the Sunday hike. Next week, Peralta.

Boredom

” ‘I’m bored’ is a useless thing to say. I mean, you live in a great, big, vast world that you’ve seen none percent of. Even the inside of your own mind is endless, it goes on forever, inwardly, do you understand? The fact that you’re alive is amazing, so you don’t get to say, ‘I’m bored.’ ” – Louis C.K.

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The boredom selfie

Do you ever think about all the stupid shit we concern ourselves with that our ancestors never had time to consider? We’ve built ourselves so much “efficiency”, it will no doubt be our demise. Tasks that are actually important, like maintaining the fabric of the clan or, sheeeit, even feeding ourselves are rushed by to get right to the leisure; diabetes-in-a-box for dinner so we can spend more time in front of a screen, not talking to one another. Weird.

I myself don’t suffer from boredom. Perhaps, growing up in an extremely quiet small town forced me to be creative and entertain myself from a young age. Or maybe, it’s just that I am easily entertained; all that over-thinking is helpful like that. In the words of my young, but wise cousin Britt, “I’m fine with myself.” [Sidenote: I go back to that phrase of his a lot. He was referring to the fact he was standing on a bourgie pier, my aunt’s enormous hot pink handbag dangling from his elbow, but I find it to have a multitude of applications.]

This week’s Freakonomics podcast is all about boredom. Did you know the word didn’t come into usage until the 18th century!? Fascinating. Take a listen. When it comes to experiencing boredom, how do you handle it? Are you fine with(in) yourself, or do you search for the nearest electrical outlet?


01 Nov | Su
Active Rest Day

31 Oct | Sa
O-Lifting
Clean pulls 4 x 3 @110% (145,155,165,165#)
Tall Jerks 7 x 2 @40% (65#)
3 rounds:
Banded kneeling Press aka “John Wayne’s” x 10ea (20#)
Windmills x 5ea (26#)
S-L RDL x 10ea (35#)

Stretch

30 Oct | F
Rest

29 Oct | Th
MFR | 20:00
Work | Recovery
Rotating for 25:00
AD x 1:00
Row x 1:00
Run x 200m
Banded Dead Bugs x 1:00
Lacrosse ball to the face shoulder x 1:00

Stretch | 20:00

28 Oct | W
Morning:
Tower Summit @ Dixie Peak
+/- 3 miles

Lunch:
Pillars | x 3
Reverse table 2(x10)
Glute press x 10
Scaption x 8@:05
Hollow rocks x :30

Warm-up | x 3
TGU x 2 each side
AD x 1:00
Candle sticks x 2 each side
Row x 1:00

Work | x 5
Sled walk x 200m (135#)
RFESS x 8 each side (15# DBs)
Good mornings x 8
AD x 10 cals

Stretch 2.0 | 25:00

Happy Hour:
Olé
Deadlift 4 x 2 (165,185,195,195#)
Snatch Segment DLs 3 x 4 (65#)
4 sets:
Kneeling Pallof Press x 10
Quad Shoulder Tap x 10 ea
Rev Fly x 10 (5#)

27 Oct | Tu
Rest

26 Oct | M
Pillars | x 3
Hanging leg raise 2(x7)
Banded walks x 12
Prone Y raise 2(x8)

Warm up | 3 rounds
RDL x 10 empty bar
Row x 200m
DB reverse fly x 10 reps
Work | Deadlift x 5 sets – 210# base
Rest x 3:00
5 @ 45% (95#)
5 @ 55% (115#)
5 @ 65% (135#)
5 @ 75% (160#)
5+ @ 85% (8 @180#)
– then –
AD sprints 5 x :20
Rest x 1:30 btwn

Stretch | 20:00

25 Oct | Su
Rest Day

24 Oct | Sa
Pillars | x3
Leg drops x 15
Reverse curl-ups x 5
GA Squats x 6
Super bird Dogs x 6ea

Warm up | AD + DUs

Work | Olé

23 Oct | F
Warm-up | 3 rounds
Lunges x 20 steps
Ring rows x 10
Sit-ups x 10

Work | 3 Sets
Deficit Zercher lunges x 10 ea (55#)
Rest x 1:00
Chin-up negatives x 5
Rest x 3:00
3 Sets:
Reverse flys x 15 (5# plates)
DB biceps curls x10 (15#)
Rest x 1:30

Stretch | 20:00


(A week ago) Saturday | Ass: SAF in a good way
Shoulder: SAF in a bad way
No O-Lifting for this chick today.

(Ditto) Sunday | Glutes still SAF. In unrelated news, I was told I look like Sandy B at the laundromat. She must have a movie coming out.

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I’m not sure I see the resemblance…
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Ne’ermind. Totally get it.

Monday-Friday | It was a rough week and I took really shitty notes. Either my back, my tricep, or my hip was “speaking to me” all week. Frustrating. What was that you were saying about how the happenings IN the gymnasium reflect the happenings OUTside of the gymnasium? Funny how that works.

Saturday | I ❤ Oly. Those John Waynes! Mind (and glutes) blown.

Sunday | Hip is feeling better than it did Saturday. But not good enough to try a hike. Just walked the doggie and cleaned the house. Cleaning the house counts as active rest, right? The way I do it, it does, no doubt.

Gonna work on my sleep position. I’ve been slacking on that and maybe that’s what’s triggering the hip and tricep stuff. I don’t know. But I’ll give it a try.

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October was a ride. Going to take advantage of the challenge extension. Hour six of the 24 hour Sunday fast.